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Ok, so I know its a bit gradeschool to be comepletely intrigued and straight up attracted to a movie or tv star but I have to say that I can not help it on this one...Have any of you seen the new tv show "Friday Night Lights" on NBC? Well in the show, there is this cheerleader who is played by the beautiful Minka Kelly. Her body isnt all that great, she is skinny and as you know I like that, but its her face that literally makes me melt. I watch the show and everytime shes on screen I just get mesmerized by her expressions and her beauty. Now this girl, Minka Kelly is not a major actress however she isnt a highschooler either...As we all know when they are cast for these shows, its always younger so keep in mind that this girl is 26! Anywayz, I just thought I should share that Im honestly obsessed with a tv star and that being the beautiful Minka Kelly. Man I would give a lot just to meet her let alone date her...Sigh, am I pathetic? Or just plain lonely? or just in love? eh...no chance for a guy like me to meet a girl like that...but a man needs his dreams...right? | | |
| Well, its been awhile since I posted last so I thought Id do a quick one right now. The only thing I can say right now, is that I am completely bored. I miss highschool and college, more so college. Highschool was fun, was so close to some people that whenever i was bored, I could just call them up and be like, "Hey wanna go hang out?" and they would do it. I mean it could just be going to the mall and walking around, to playing tennis, to just hanging out and playing video games. Whatever the thing was, we did it together, and during highschool I had a girlfriend who I spent so much time with. I miss those days...Then there was college, spending soooo much time with my roommates, playing bball, going to just grab some dinner, watching bball or movies, whatever it was we did it on a whim. Then there was my other friends, my "bio" friends who I grabbed dinner sometimes with, who went out and did things when I was bored. Now, im bored, I do nothing, I play tennis at IVC 3 days a week, cause i have nothing else to do, I spend time at the driving range, I cant find anyone to hang with, but recently I am glad to have had Andrea come down and spend time with me, also time with Huan,Brent, Michelle and Linda, it was fun. So I hope everyone gets the idea that Im available and call me up whenever they are bored...because i am always bored...Sigh... | | |
| Time goes by and with each passing moment, my Heart can steer one way or another...although I normally find myself with content, I can sometimes find myself drifting...Its so easy to then question one's self, Why me?...Despite my emotional episodes, I can still function...I move forward...pressing on...hoping...wanting...and most importantly...Waiting....just sitting here Waiting....
Reflections of Solitude
The shadows that bind and mock me surround;
The lost lore of the land of repulsive rejection;
Impudent thoughts arise from sound;
Progressing near my immortal affection;
These tense thoughts of total desolation;
Sear staccato through all of my being;
Tortured soul from immense isolation;
Has left my imperious ways without meaning;
In my last hour, I'll let the 3600 memories go by;
And let the crimson rivers flow, its source has long died;
When the dreams fade and I ask myself why;
Within my heart, like a endless woe, enduring loneliness like a
heart deprived;
Deprived of love, as the shadows creep, my heart sadly torn;
Mimicking life's oasis, but only that of my heart forlorn....
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| Its been a long time since I've last posted...A lot has taken place since then. Recently, I am now a offical student of San Diego State University. Although, I am attending SDSU, I currently do not live there, and probably will not till hopefully January. The major reason I feel like I need to get out, move out on my own is that with my current status, Im alone...without options and without company. I think I need to just be around people my own age...LIVE! On a sadder note, I have also been quite lonely, trying to pass the time keeping busy but I am having trouble finding things to do. I have recently took up Golf, attend Tennis class 2 days a week and now planning on taking guitar lessons from the city. Ive recently started to play my guitar a little more, and Ive realized how much I really want to learn and express myself through music. | | |
| And so it ends, there is no return...
I feel so....alone... | | |
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